this morning #1726.
this morning, in the heat of some inane office moment, i raised my voice to one of my younger team members. immediately regretted it. watched the hurt emerge on her face. immediately apologized. tried to walk back my rage. she gave me a half-hearted “ok” in response but it was obvious that i’d hurt her feelings. for the rest of the day, my focus was broken. no idea why i’d acted like such a jerk. it’s just work. when i was in her position, i really didn’t care about what happened around here. now i care slightly more but it’s for a reason. i actually have something to prove. still, i can’t be snapping at folks over trivial stuff. don’t care about this job that much. now i’ll have to come up with a way to repair the damage i’ve done.