this morning #1701.
this morning, the mild spate of motivation that i’d had up until yesterday morning had up & escaped & i was starting off my day already drained. frozen by anxiety & doubt. coffee was not the answer. a cold shower only ended up increasing the tension traveling throughout my body. a plate of bacon & toast helped. barely. damn. i drank way too much last night. mixed my drinks with lingering worry over my new relationship. based on the stiff interactions we had all day yesterday, the cracks are starting to show. if the mood keeps going in this dire direction, this super bowl party at her friend’s place tomorrow could end up being a disaster. i hope not. maybe yesterday was just a blip. maybe tomorrow will be better.