this morning #1582.
this morning, maybe my reaction was a bit harsh. maybe i didn’t have to call mom all those names & make her cry. when i get home tonight, i’ll try to apologize. it won’t be for the substance of what i said. i meant every damn word of that. she’s dishonoring my brother’s name with her anger. i’ll say i’m sorry for how i said it. unleashing pent-up rage on each other won’t help us heal no matter how good it feels. we need to heal together. as a family. dad’s ready. i know i am. i bet she is too but just can’t admit it. proud mom. still shaken. deflecting instead of accepting. her first-born son is dead. that’s just reality. not going to change. nobody’s fault. really, all i need is for her to calm down & see that we’re all on the same team.